Kolkata Blogger Meet

21/09/2008 at 16:00

there is a blogger meet organized by indiblogger...all my blogger mates from kolkata please try and be there..the meeting is sure to rock!

Wassup

Being away from my blog is such a pain and not surprisingly all kinds of problem occur only with me so you can well imagine.. yes first person to be blamed is my internet. My service provider has now changed, actually the organization from whom I would take my package has now split into two groups, so now the wires and everything else has to be changed and new connection has to be established. Phew!

I donated blood on Sunday. What went wrong was I had woken up with a headache and a somewhat sore throat, but nonetheless I went. This time blood donation was somewhat smooth, no needle hassles like other times; when the doc isn’t able to find my vein, so he screwed the needle into my skin in search of that vein. Ouch! Guess what? I was the only girl and the youngst person to donate blood. Samik of course wasn’t too happy when he heard about it, but then I told him once I was back home and resting. Lol! Seriously I haven’t felt that weak in ages, I could barely sit straight. But still I went shopping in crowded markets J

Seeing the live coverage and report of the dehi blasts left me shattered. To seee canaught place, greater kailash and karol bagh being the victims of terrorism not only affected me, but to see the places with whom I have such fond memories, which stood for all things special to me being reduced to shambles brought tears to me eye. Samik and I both couldn’t get over the fact, that just 9 months back we were at the same place, having the time of our lives. I really hope the government will take strict action against terrorism, to ensure its citizens a happy and secure life.

I have a test coming up but im just too sick for words. This cold is killing me. I have just no clue what I am going to do. But I guess I will try and make use of the time in bed to relax and catch up with studies. Hopefully things work out. The first of my first internal results are out, they are pretty good, atleast I am happy. I got a 7 out of 10, the heighest being 8. I am putting in efforts I hope I am being rewarded.

Samik is serving his notice period in HSBC. He will get his release by November 8^th if it is not extended till maybe the end of the month. So spending the pujas is so not happening. But then we can spend the morning anjalis together, or so I hope. We have made some plans to enjoy ourselves before samik leaves. It is a big step. A Shantiniketan [ a place, where Rabindranath tagore opened his esteemed institutions. My mom is a pass out of it.] trip being planned with friends, I hope I can convince a few girl friends of mine to come along only then this trip will become a reality. And if it does, then it sure promises some good times ahead before the dreaded reality will step in.

some people make special places in our hearts.
when they move on their place is left vacant. and a void is created.
a void that can never be filled.

sometimes it is just best to let things go;
for what was never meant to be will remain unfulfilled.
maybe it was never meant to be at all.

The process of separation has already begun. Nothing will defer it anymore. The heart is both happy and sad. Happy because it means, new shores beckons him to a better tomorrow. Sadness permeates when the realization dawn, that the countdown has begun; soon it will be time for him to leave. People say, it is normal, you will get used to it; but for those who live the reality know, just how distressing it is. Insecurities threaten to over power but better sensibilities prevail. Heart shatters into million pieces each time the topic comes up, the very existence is disturbed; yet smile never abandons my face, nor does optimism desert me. Tears threaten to spill, but do not. Mind is numb. How long? How long before I break down? Consequences will be disastrous. So tears and gloom will have to be masqueraded in smiles. Every passing moment have to be treasured and memorized. Life has to be lived, like there is no tomorrow. For tomorrow I may be alone, with memories for comfort. Let’s make the best of a these moments, before time runs out.

He loves her
But he cannot overlook the shortcomings

He is said to be a genuine person
Yet he is not without fangs and conceit.

Can such contradictions occur simultaneously?
Can this really be love??

Turning 21

Turning 21 isnt anything special but it is the people around and their anticipation for a day meant to be just for me, made it more special. i had everyone i loved and valued and that mattered the most. i was truly happy, despite the several urges to sulk or give in to the gloom. it meant much, for next year i may just have to be on my own on my birthday. thanks to Ipsy, Druhin, Didi, Jiju, Roshni and specially Samik for making it so special.

ROCK ON!

watched Rock On yesterday, and i was too spellbound to think coherently. it was every cine goers paisa vassol and a technicians delight and youths moral booster and every individuals deepest desire come true. if you value friendship, this is the movie too watch. music is superb. farhan akhtar and prachi desai play their part to perfection as new comers, purab and luke kenney fit into their part and arjun rampal looked every bit of a rock star. the debutant director marks a great entry into bollywood. it is THE movie to watch. ROCK ON!

Tag 2 & 3

hey people, all of you who thought i was dead and gone for good, bad luck!I'm back... my Internet package as usual conked off because i had exhausted my download limit[ i don't download a thing :( must be the blogs with songs and stuff..hmmmph!] anyway, pardon me ill be more frequent will read up your blogs and comment ASAP. I'm just thrilled to do this tag, actually any tag, right now. not because i don't have posts up my sleeve, i do; but then i m happy so i want to write on happy stuff. why happy? well because i turn 21 soon, very soon! :)

here goes the tag: This tag asks the concerned person to write 6 quirks about herself. and i have been tagged by vanilla sky :)

• i have a very good instinct, i almost always know what is going to happen, my opinions about people is rarely wrong, and most my decisions are correct.
• I'm scared of being mugged, molested or even eve teased, so until I'm out only with samik [who drops me home] I'm never out till late.
• i meticulously make lists and plan out my day to day activities, my accounts exams and other events. and i almost never forget any birthdays.
• the only time i am myself is at night when everyone is asleep, it is then i become more humane and i finally let tears, fears and insecurities crawl out. even though im a emotional person i feel ashamed to show them.
  
• I'm scared of loving and losing people, so i try and scare them off me if possible. and if it is a guy,any guy [potential mate]i almost always make him a brother, so as not to have him propose to me and me having to deny him.
• love, marriage and making love [sex] to me is sacred, i will only give myself up to a man i can trust, respect and depend on. i am capable of walking away from a relationship if only i feel i do not respect the person or trust him.

Tag 3

i have been tagged by ๑۩۞۩๑♥V♥๑۩۞۩๑

you need to post your desktop and few of your favorite quotes.

this is my desktop: that's samik and me



1. Our doubts are traitors, it often makes us loose what we could have achieved by fearing to attempt- Shakespeare

2.It is better to be loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

3.Our wills and fate, do so contrary run.that our devices are still overthrown; our thoughts are ours, their end none of our own.

now i tag- Aneesh ,Matangi Mawley,aqua gurl, Vinz aka Vinu, Ria

tag

tag 1 and this is by aqua girl.thanks sweety :D

I am - simple, straightforward, taditional yet i have modern outlook to life.

I hate - hate is too strong a word to use, noone is that important to me that i absolutely hate him/her. lol!

I hear - snow patrol "chasing cars"

I sing- must have been love- roxette / where do i begin-love story theme.

I cry- when i fail.

I write- to preserve my sanity

I always- am on time.

I dont always- express my mind

I listen- to soft pop

I can usually be found- in my classroom, library or at home in my room.

I am happy about- my life

now for the time tagging, i tag vanilla sky, [-v], buzz, and mayank

Yay! Vishal won!!

The most deserving of the two guys won. Vishal not only won over the one girl who had been true to him even under the grills of a reality show, but he won the contest too and has come out of the battleground of so called dating program, untarnished and as a man who knows what he is doing and has proved that being unscrupulous can only bring doom and nothing but.