Happy Birthdays!!

January is my bankruptcy season. with so many birthdays and anniversaries that i don't need to wait for the end of the month to be without money, it happens from the first itself.

Well today is Dad and Sir's [you know who? yeah my favorite prof's] birthday and of course Hrithik Roshan's birthday too...

here's wishing you a very happy wala budday.. may you have a rocking birthday and have a fulfilling year ahead!!

that's HIM.. its SIR :D

We had a surprise birthday party at sir's place today.where we had a gala time.the food and snacks was amazing!sir took special time out to just to talk to Samik, so that he didn't feel left out, as he was the only one not from our college or department. i was touched to say the least. moreover other members of the faculty were there too and mam [sir's wife] and sir went out of their way to make samik comfortable and introduced him to other members of my faculty as their friends and we had a great adda session, :D i was feeling a whole lot special not only because it was my favourite prof's birthday but to our batch he is more of a friend than anything else. the kind of relationship we share is really amazing, and for them to accept samik as my extension of me, is really a big deal for me, as I'm really a very shy person when it comes to being public with my relationship with my seniors from college or my elders. Truly Sir rocks and mam is damn nice too..

mom and dad

Here is a very special birthday wish to Mom, who has her birthday tomorrow.

i know i have been less than perfect of a daughter. i know i dont have a great friendship with you. i know i end up making you cry. i know i have the worst of arguments with you and that we are like chalk and cheese. but ma, i hope you know and feel that i do love you in my own crazy way. i may never tell this to you and will never make you realize it, but i do. you will always be the one i end up spilling the beans, you will always be the one i will turn to for help and comfort. no matter just what i say or do i will always hold you dear to me.. love you loads... wishing you a very Happy Birthday!!

The day I Puked 6 times!!

I really had a horrendous time yesterday and trust me you dont know just what i went through. my student wanted to go out for lunch and wanted to treat me. so went to the mall nearby namely south city, there we choose a simple non-veg thali, it was delicious with dal makhni,chicken,phool gobi and aloo sabji,rice and paratha as well. the meal was sumptuous untill we decided to finsih it off with brownie from flury's and then wash it down with coffee. damn!! thats the wrong part, since my student had planned it and all i couldnt refuse the huge array of food she had intended. i knew the moment i was half way through the brownie, that i had just overstepped the line. and from then on i started falling ill.

I dont know how but we managed to get home, i was feeling like hell and it seemed so funny to my silly but nice student who decided to make matters worse by talking of food and egging me on.. i tried calming down but the uneasyness wouldnt go, then i just rushed to the loo for a session of puking. just when i sat down and thought.. "okay so the worst is over.." just then i got another call so i just rushed off to another puking session... then another and another... another then another and at last the 6th and the last time...so an exhaustive me almost passed out on the bathroom floor, with a bad case of migraine just setting in.. somehow i pulled myself up and as i peered into the mirror i saw a strange face staring back, sullen eyes, with ters running down and blood ozzing out of my nostrils.after repeated washing it just wouldnt go, and the blood just wouldnt stop it took an hour and almost 10-15 cotten buds and then the blood just stopped pouring!! :D

I asked mom if i could be hospitalized and all and she flatly refused me..damn!! there went my deam of being hospitalized. did i tell you that i have a strange fixation with being admitted in the hospitals. i just want to be admitted and then have all my friends and relatives swarming up to meet me and make me feel important..but that's a different story :)

tag tag tag!!

Yay!! Anwesa tagged me.. here goes..

1)What is your occupation?
A student but i prefer 'a blogger' more.

2)What colour are your socks now?
White and blue.. really cute and that reminds me, i have to hunt my red and white socks which have merrily gone missing after i had put it in the laundry tub!damn!

3)What are you listening to now?
The phone is ringing !

4)What was the last thing you ate?
A cup of coffee

5)Can you drive a stick shift?
Huh what!?

6)Last person you spoke to on phone?
samik.. just hung up :)

7)Do you like the person who sent you this?
NO I DONT. Love her :)

8)How old are you today?
I'm 21 yrs and 4 months old :)

9)What is your favourite sport to watch on TV?
Cricket.. like you need to ask?

10)What are your favourite drinks?
Vodka... lol just kidding... coffee not really a great CCD fan anymore but i like those nescae coffee machines.. they are like heavenly..coffee with a hint of chocolate and loads of froth..inexpensive so i can actually have more than one...

11)Have you ever dyed your hair ?
You mean hair colouring? if yes then yea just once.. it didnt really have an effect :(

12)Favourite food?
Anything that i can eat and digest without falling sick.. im not a great foodie

13)Last movie watched?
Tintorreter Jesus by Sandip Ray

14)Favourite day of the year?
Samik's birthday and our anniversary... both falls on the same day :P on the 2nd of June

15)How do you vent out your anger?
I sulks, stomp,give the person who has angered me a terrible time..and that person invariably is Samik..poor guy but really cant help... im pretty gusse wali.. dont go by the impression i give.. you know whom to ask this question.. now dont you..

16)Favourite toy as a child?
Now thats a tough one.. i cant remember toys but yea i simply adored my Basketball

17)Favourite season?
Interim period when the seasons change, be it spring or autumn.. love summers and monsoons too but i dont really like winters due to the cold and for having to wear thick wollens which i think spoils an attire and makes you look fatter...

18)Do you want your friends to email you? Yes,of course.

19)When was the last time you cried?
Hmm...1st of jan.. and that happened almost 6-8 months after the last time before that, and this must tell you something.. i hardly cry..

20)What is on the floor of your closet?
Some dirty laundry

21)Who is the friend you have had the longest?
sorry they are twins.. Sayanti and Srimoyee.. i have known her since first day of school when i was in Kindergarten that's almost 16 years and Druhin too in that case whom i have known from Pre-school and that's almost 19 years and few months..

22)What did you do last night?
Chatted with Samik over the phone till 2.30am.. don't worry i wasn't late..got up at 7am :D

23)What are you most afraid of?
Being abandoned and losing loved ones :(

24)Plain,cheese or spicy hamburger?
Both

25)Favourite dog breed ?
golden retriever or Labrador

26)Favorite day of the week?
Saturday

27)How many states have you lived in?
One :)

28)Diamond or pearl?
I'm not really a jewelery person, can hardly wear one for long. id rather have a rare pearl of a husband and diamond like a life with him

29)What is your wish for this new year?
that all my dreams and desires come true.

30)New year resolutions?
YEA of course, that i will not fight changes.

Now i TAG
Harshita
Richa
Nikhil [multimenon]
Yamini
Amrita and
Mithe

PS- thanks you guys for the lovely comments in the previous post!! im too touched for words... *hugs*

Happy Birthday!!

It is a very special day today and this day warrants me beside one of most lovable kid but then the situation isn't right for me to overstep the line i have drawn around me. It is a mean battle of the mind versus the heart, the longing versus self dignity, between love and respect; and to make the choice is tough. However the tough call maybe, the choice is obvious. And this one time i will not sacrifice my honour and dignity to please others but put myself before anyone, because if i give in this time to my heart, my desires and my love, i will never be able to earn the respect from people that i truly deserve.
A cute lil angel turns 3 today and it is a misfortune that i cannot be there for her, on one of her most important days. but then that doesn't stop me from remembering such a sweetheart who brings smiles to all she meets and touches lives with her beautiful ways.

Today Mohor's [Samik's niece] turns 3 and here's wishing her lots of fun, frolic and laughter!! may this day be the brightest day of the year and bring her joys, and smiles.

Happy Birthday Mohor!!

- Love Raka Mashi

A long long day

Wow I'm so glad people take me so seriously :) in my last post where i was stomping about angry and hurt, where i had warned my friends not to read ahead if they were going to be bored hearing me rant. :) that's a real nice thing to see. to be honest I'm rather glad most didn't read it because, a day after the incident occurred my anger has gone down nonetheless.. I'm no longer as stomping mad as i was yesterday. i believe every incident has something to teach you, and that eventually everything happens for our own good. however unfortunate the event was, i got to know that i can never be too polite to bear someone humiliating and insulting me. samik too i see has stood up for me and what he felt was right, and for someone who is gandhi ji's ardent pupil, with ahimsa, that's a good start. apparently his folks have realized that what happened shouldn't have happened and are trying to make amends and have termed the whole fiasco as "unfortunate thing to happen" but i need time to heal. so now I'm just not going back and if i ever hear anyone talking marriage to me, i swear i will wring his/ her neck with my bare hands.

I was faced with yet another case of infidelity today. it was shocking to hear my student confess about her father's infidelity to me. what was really alarming was that, her father did it openly without any shame, got the lady over and did things or behaved in a way most inappropriate. and the reason for behaving this way? well her mom had been removed from her school when she was in class 9 and was married off to an old man from a rich household, who had an affair with his sister-in-law, so that had led to her unfortunate marriage falling apart and later she married her father. i was left with no words to comfort her. i don't know what the world is coming to.

On happier thoughts, i spoke to Harshi. and needless to say I'm a lot happier and calm. so no this time i wont thank her. i ll just settle with thanking god for sending me a non Christmas season Santa. Really life becomes a whole lot better if you have some great people around.

our new blog is really gaining great response and its really heartwarming. and the best part of it is, we are not under any pressure to promote or make its presence to be felt, like we had to the last time with the other blog. this time the bloggers are so excited that we have almost 6 posts in 5 days which i think is a super duper start. i just hope things work out and this blog stands the test of time.

if you still haven't seen it yet?and are interested to visit it.. then the link is here -Femme Fatale

And in case you haven't picked your award.. click here... or simply scroll down.there is one for everyone..

Here is what i keep telling myself every time life hurls me with a new challenge.. i don't know if it will work for you, but it sure works for me.

Hope is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense regardless of how it turns out.

Being a girl is like living a life of utter indignity!

Let me warn you that i am angry and extremely pissed and this post is just a remedy to get off that thing that has turned my life living hell. So if you think you will be bored stop reading it, now or come back later when a different post is up. I should probably post this is my all girls blog but then i need to vent and i need to vent it here.
For the first time in life i felt that being a girl can be such a pain in life. Until today I have never faced the brunt of any injustice because i am a girl but what happened today made me feel bad for being a girl. What happened today shouldn't have happened and i don't know just how to get over it and move on. I know tomorrow maybe i will have better sense to look beyond everything, to regain the hope and faith and deal with this situation better but as of now, I'm angry,insulted, pissed, humiliated hurt and extremely disappointed.
A girl no matter how careerist, or homely, always envisions that the day the talks of her marriage will be broached will be a happy affair. it will be a beautiful moment that will be with her for life. I'm not different. but today my happiness turned into insult, humiliation and utter disappointment and hurt. Samik's folks brought up the topic of marriage today. its their tonality and perspective of looking at our marriage that led to this being my worst nightmare. They made me feel I'm an object.. some alu bhindi, with no dreams or desires, that i should get married and why? Because if Samik gets married then he will be settled he will learn to take responsibilities, and if he moves out of town, he will have me to take care of him. i wonder why his parents need a literature graduate servant for their son, to take care of him. i was angry and aghast. all this was coming from people who i believed loved me back, who are so concerned about me and my well being. they know about my future aspirations to study and work and yet they say stuff like this; and what could be worse, they spoke to me in third person, making me feel even worse, like "we were telling samik, get married because you will have someone to take care of you, and you wont be feeling alone or bored. having a wife will make him responsible" and i was dying to yell at them, " and what about me? and my dreams and wishes? am i that trivial?" damn!! i cant belive people in 21st century are like this, specially people who claim to love me treating me like im something that need to be weighed and sold; it hurts like hell. i cant belive that such people exist who they have double standards one reserved for thier daughter and one for their daughter-in-law.

Are we girls born only so that we can be married off?? are we not an individual at all? if any of you guys reading this, then make a mental note now; never let your parents talk you into such atrocious things, never do it to your own daughter and never ever let anyone related to you or not, go through this at all. marraige is a beautiful thing to happen, but it should happen when the time is right and when the two people are ready for it. i hope none of you have to go through what i did.

Btw NO IM NOT GETTING MARRIED!! :x

!! MY AWARDS !!

Ok people i have officially been bitten by this Award bug and specially since i have learn't how to now make my own awards i couldn't help but passing them around. i promise this is the last set of awards in the next few months but please please bear with me this time : D! And o yea... dont forget to tell me how the awards were.. this is my very first attempt and i may actually suck at it but please bear with me..

• all my friends deserve this one.. pardon me if i have left out anyone :)
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  Santoshi

  
  
• Priyanka

  
  
• Twisted Elegance..

  
  
• Aneesh

  
  
• CLOUDS

  
  
• DevineDiu :the rocking blogger

  
  
• Lena: rainbow of happy thoughts

  
  
• DiVS

  
  
• Trina

  
  
• Mithe: The Sweetest

  
  
• Yamini: storehouse of creativity

  
  
• Mayz: the intellectual

  
  
• The lover :The Charmer

  
  
• Keshi; The diva

  
  
• Mehreen: friend from across the borders

  
  
• Valencia: The Eccentric

  
  
• Preetilata

  
  
• Chris

  
  
• Richa:Soni Kudi

  Rahul
  
• The world round me

  
  
• C E E D Y

  
  
• Anwesa ; the bookworm

  
  
• Crystal

  
  
• Multi menon: My Twin

  
  
• Hemz: The Wizard

  
  
• 
  
  Sawan

  
  
• Abhishek

  
  
• RIA

  
  
• 
  
  Akshat

  
  
• Sahil

  
  
• PK: Zingalala guy

  
  
• Sumit da

  
  
• La vida Loca

  
  
• Vickram

  
  
• Saheli: Lil Boxes

  
  
• Tara: the lovable

  
  
• Neha

  
  
• Harshita- Angle in the House

  
  
• Deluded

  
  
• Oxymoron

  
  
• PJ - Lil Miss Sunshine

  
  
• Amrita

  
  
• Sexy Zubin

  
  
• Think Tank : Farah

  
  
• Shrav

  
  
• 
  
• Pri

  
  
• moon's croon

  Odds & ends
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• LIGHTER SIDE

  
  
• Aman

  Only I saw..
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• Chocolate.

  
  
• dewdrop and Leaves

  
  
• Lisa

  
  
• Aman

  
  
• rain ville

  the last drop
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• Calm Frenzies

  Her

  
  
• Dare To Achieve

  
  
• Vinu

  
  
• Mann

  
  
• Realm oF Scribble

  
  
• Thé Édìsöñ Squàré|

  
  
• Crevices Of A Bare Mind

Harshita, Richa, Anwesa, PJ, Yamini, Trina, Mithe, Lena, Keshi,Ria Tara, Crystal,Amrita,Mehreen ,Devinediu and Divs :)
Harshita, Mithe, Anwesa,Richa, Hemz,Trina, Yamini,Multimenon, Kesh,Yamini, Trina, Mithe, Devinediu,Lena,Ria Tara, Crystal, Rahul and Divs :)
ZUBIN. Mayz,PJ,Anwesa,Hemz,Harshita,Richa,Divs,Trina, PK, Keshi, Aqua girl, Ria,Yamini, Mithe, Mehreen, Crystal, Preetilata, Lena, Abhishek, Hemz, Amrita,Mehreen and Chris
this one goes to Harshita, Richa, Hemz, Divs, PJ, PK, Akshat, Multimenon, Chris, Mayz,Rahul, Amrita,Mehreen,Yamini and The lover.

dont forget to read the previous post too :) scroll down for it :P

A Violinist in the Metro

i came across this mail and i knew i had to share it with my friends. i had been wondering since long how insensitive we have all become, we hear something but dont notice it. last night as i was blogging i npticed a wail but in a minute it was forgotten but then as i was about to get to bed late that night i finally couldnt ignore it, it was a baby crying and she had been crying ever since the evening. often we see something but we dont pay attension. we hear something but dont enjoy it. something about it touched me and it is something i wanted to write on but never managed to. but this piece tells it all. read and tell me how you liked it?

From The Effective Club

A man sat at a metro station in Washington DC and started to play the violin; it was a cold January morning. He played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, since it was rush hour, it was calculated that thousand of people went through the station, most of them on their way to work.

Three minutes went by and a middle aged man noticed there was musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds and then hurried up to meet his schedule.

A minute later, the violinist received his first dollar tip: a woman threw the money in the till and without stopping continued to walk.

A few minutes later, someone leaned against the wall to listen to him, but the man looked at his watch and started to walk again. Clearly he was late for work.

The one who paid the most attention was a 3 year old boy. His mother tagged him along, hurried but the kid stopped to look at the violinist. Finally the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk turning his head all the time. This action was repeated by several other children. All the parents, without exception, forced them to move on.

In the 45 minutes the musician played, only 6 people stopped and stayed for a while. About 20 gave him money but continued to walk their normal pace. He collected $32. When he finished playing and silence took over, no one noticed it. No one applauded, nor was there any recognition.

No one knew this but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the best musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written with a violin worth 3.5 million dollars.

Two days before his playing in the subway, Joshua Bell sold out at a theater in Boston and the seats average $100.

This is a real story. Joshua Bell playing incognito in the metro station was organized by the Washington Post as part of an social experiment about perception, taste and priorities of people. The outlines were: in a commonplace environment at an inappropriate hour: Do we perceive beauty? Do we stop to appreciate it? Do we recognize the talent in an unexpected context?

One of the possible conclusions from this experience could be:

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world playing the best music ever written, how many other things are we missing?

College reopens , awards

College finally reopened today, and sulking i entered campus almost cursing my luck but then the fact that i will hopefully be leaving in a few months gave me enough reasons to cheer up. everyone was there and this time i felt nothing and absolutely numb, i guess its good for me because being worked up for few worthless people doesn't really help. schedules are tight this semester and studies gets a notch tougher. but the best part is, i have this amazing paper this semester that deals with literature and other others; as in we ll study the relationship between literature and food, art, architecture, music and films.. isn't it great! from Monday the most crucial semester, the last leg of my life as an undergraduate commences.. wish me luck! :)

And now for more awards. Akshat has been truly kind and generous and has awarded me the following awards and im trying to do a good deed and pass it to all my friends who truly deserve it :)

This one goes to Mayz, Multimenon, PK, Keshi and The lover
Harshita, Anwesa, Richa,PJ, PK, Keshi, Aqua girl, Ria, Trina,Yamini, Mithe, Mehreen, Crystal, Preetilata, Lena, Abhishek, Hemz and Chris


This one is solely for Chris

Harshita, Mithe, Anwesa,Richa, Trina, Multimenon, Keshi

MEHREEN .. my newest friend on blogger too has been very generous too and has thought me worthy of the following awards. thanks babes :) i simply love it


this one goes to Harshita, Richa, Anwesa, PJ, Yamini, Trina, Mithe, Lena, Keshi,Ria Tara, Crystal and Divs :)

this is the second time i got it. this free spirited award goes to Anwesa,Mithe, Richa, Akshat, Chris,Mayz,The lover,PK,Pisku,Multi Menon,Abhishek

Multi menon has awarded me too.. yay!! :D thanks pal! im elated!!

this one goes to Akshat, Harshita,Preetilata,Richa,Pj, Abhishek,Mithe,Anwesa,Mayz,Yamini,Divs,Valencia,Mehreen, and Crystal

this one goes to Richa, Trina, Devine diu, Tara, Neha,Amrita,Keshi,Twisted Elegance

A New Year

The new year brings with it new hopes and newer opportunities to give life yet another shot to see if truly dreams come true. fears and apprehension is close at hand, for this is one of the most crucial years of my life. i will be a graduate soon. I'm trying to apply for my dream career, in institutions far away from home. its a year i have been waiting for ever since i was 10. its a year where i will be tested for my patience, perseverance and my faith on my abilities. i just hope this crucial year of my life rewards me for the hard work i have put in, in my last 3 years of college life and fulfill my dreams and aspirations for the future.

Great news on blogger awaits us all. Mayank, Mithe and Hemz have bestowed me with new year gifts which i absolutely adore. there are as follows :)

this one is from HEMZ

This one is by Mithe

This one is by Mayz -bestest friends :)

thanks a ton guys.. I'm too touched for words

Another great news is that a new blog is born today. FEMME FATALE- this girl blog finally throws its door open to the world. there have been mistakes before, but i believe the combination is just right this time, correct group of people and intention and so is the theme. as the title suggests this is going to be a girls only blog, where we express our views, we rant, we bitch we share our tips and have a blast with nothing holding us back. hopefully this blog will blossom into a fine blog which stands the tests of time... a big thank you goes to Richa and Harshita for helping me with the blog. A special mention goes to Hemz for the header. thanks a ton pal! for all the men out there.. even though its a girl blog, you are welcome to read it but at your own risk!! come have a look, the link is here and here :D

So how was my new years eve celebrations? well i did what i would have considered perfect year ending. no blaring music or stuff crowds, just some space. i took mom and my niece out to see Satyajit Ray's written his son Sandip Ray directed Tintoretto's Jesus. its a detective movie, and the series are a huge craze even now from its first launch in the late 60's, we are brought up on stories of detective Feluda and his brother Topshe and friend Lal Mohan Ganguly. it was worth the watch, mom to was longing to see the flick so we all went along, all in all a nice mattine show which was a great entertainer. greater part of the evening that i spend home, while mom and dad were away at the club, i was chatting with Harshita, we had loads of catching up to do, considering we hadn't chatted for a long time. :) Moreover Samik made out time after his office hours and turned up to keep me company. we ushered the new year sitting and chatting under the blanket as the new year dawned. the day couldn't have been more perfect!

I hope all you guys had a superb year ending?? :)

Here's wishing you a very Happy New Year once again!! do scroll down to the card i sent for you guys in the previous post and comment on it too :)

Love Phoenix