..........Forever.

You came in. I wiped off my tears. You saw it all. Still you remained unmoved.Tickets, luggage everything was in place.

With each step, my life was drifting away from me.

Your words flashed across my mind. Those poignant words……“You cannot see my tears. That does not mean I don’t ever cry.”

I turned back, fathomed the depth of your eyes and vowed to be yours…Forever.

**Crafted by : ANWESA**

P.S.: It is a guest post. Our dear Phoenix will be back in sometime.

Tête-à-tête

Its an honour to be a part of Her Highness Phoenix’s 100th post of the year. I want to make best use of this opportunity to delight her readers. I guess the whole bloggerville is aware of our special relationship. For the sake of the novice bloggers, I hereby proclaim that we are a couple, albeit without any malign or disrespect towards anybody’s feelings. Coming back to her, we met on 25th December 2008 and are going steady ever since. I really don’t know what brought us so close- our similarities or differences. Anyways, I now move on to what I was meant to do. Have yet another chit-chat session.

1-Phoenix, you have always been an open book for your blog-readers. It has its advantages but don’t you ever feel that your privacy is threatened by it ?

hmm..good question.. you know my prof at college keeps telling us that blogging to him is washing your dirty linen in public, however I beg to differ. After 2 and a half years of blogging, I find blogging therapeutic and if I don’t blog I will probably go insane…and my answer is in your question, I am an open book and being a generally a secure person I don’t feel threatened if people know the real me. When one blogs one uses his/ her discretion.. so I don’t write anything that can threaten my privacy that is against my blogging ethics.


2-You are a gem of a person. You have your imperfections too but somehow they accentuate your persona. Now tell us what are your worst qualities as a blogger.

OMG! :) well when I read the blogs of Mayank, Yams, you and a few others who churn out literary masterpieces.. I feel inadequate. This is so because I can write only when I feel about the topic or it touches me in some way other the other. So I cannot really write using ornamental words to express on topics out of the blue or a random thought… here lies my inadequacies or worst quality as a blogger. i wish i could write quality stuff or for that matter, i wish i could write poems using literary writing meters.


3-Your perception of friendship-how different are your e-pals from your real world friends?

Friendship to me is forever and it is one of the greatest realities of my life, so whether real or e-pals doesn’t make it any difference, they are equally important to me. In fact I turn to my e-pals much more when in grief than my real friends.

4- An oft-repeated cliche – do you believe in perfect relationships? Is it an illusion or luck by chance or in one’s hands ?

I’m a perfectionist as you know, but then I have realized that there is nothing called perfect or ideal in life, a relationship or a person can come close to what you consider an ideal. Running after an ideal or perfection in relationship is like running after a mirage in a desert. As about chance, well some people are a little lucky who retain the magic of the initial romance in a relationship, often time weathers it away but then if you want such a drastic fate or a stable relationship is in our hands..

5- your favourite blogger . And why ? (only one name-no diplomacy or inhibitions-just be honest and frank-I know you are…)

you never ever choose between gems… that is a rule I maintain…:P okay jokes apart.. its unfair to name any particular person, because each of my blogger friends assume a particular role and function in my life, like Harshita is like my eternal shelter, You are my bind, an ultimate friend who listens patiently and always bails me out of sticky spots, Richa is like my alter ego ultimate girl pal i can ever have, then there is Yams who adds peace and calm to my life, Nikhil is my twin soul, Mayank is and eternal mentor to me, he kinda brings out the best in me… Sumit da is my only brother in blog world and then there is Amit who has now become a real good friend to me.. isn’t it really unfair to choose the best among bestest. im sure u will agree right?? :P


6- your best post till date…..

god I cant name one.. only because I haven’t thought about it …all my sentimental posts are my favorite because it comes straight from the heart and I am not really good at expressing my emotions…

7- 100 posts in 5 months- 20 posts a month – how easy or tough is it to write posts every other day ?

hell it was easy! i am a born blogger and who dares equal me… lol! Just kidding.. the thing is, when I am under immense stress and pressed up for time, I automatically turn to blogging for comfort and to keep me sane. As you know last few months were grueling and extremely stressful for me.. :)

8- Bengaluru- your new destination. How will your blogging be affected by this change of place ? I know its too early to say but still….any idea ?

I so love this question… see the first thing I asked my senior from college when I got through IIJNM was are we permitted to blog using college computers and only after being thoroughly assured I gave dad the go ahead to initiate the process of admission.. : )
So I have insured my blogging career, apart from the initial few days of settling down I think I may actually get back to a post a month, specially since I wont have anything else to keep me occupied. :) So don’t smirk I am not leaving blogging for anything in the world. :P

9-What is your idea of pure blogging ? we often find people using their blogs to blow their own trumpet/use blogs for publicity. How wrong or right is that ?

Hmm well I cant answer for anyone else here, we have our personal reasons to blog, and since our blog is like our private space where we let in our friends to peak in, it is bound to be I-centric. It can be boring for the readers I know but then one must understand its our private space after all.. hey I hope this question is not targeted to me? :P lol I'm no one to judge other peoples actions but I know I don’t want to blow my own trumpet but there are times I share my accomplishments etc to celebrate the event that is all. it is all about how we percieve a particular thing. 


10- “Destiny’s Child” is a personal blog (its all about you and your world) . In a span of a few years would you ever create another personal blog in addition to the existing one ? Please elaborate.

NO WAY! I may have other blogs where I write but there wont be another personal blog, because for one I have another secret, private and confidential blog..shush!! And two, I like reading my pasts posts and analyzing how I have evolved as a person. Moreover my blog in a way are a record of the events and people or things that have happened to me over the period of time…and to me my blog is my world i can never ever abandon it for anything in life.period!


Thanks dear for giving me the pleasure of talking to you. You know how I love it. I hope you enjoyed it too. And your readers too. I hope you continue blogging and provide us the joy of your companionship.

:P haha the pleasure is all mine sweetheart, you always bail me out of my writers block and im really grateful you agreed to do this at such a short notice. And thanks a ton for the beautiful wishes and I will see to it that you guys wont get off so easily and that I will continue to blog and torture you till whenever I can.. :)

So its Anwesa signing off with a promise to meet all of you yet again.....till then keep smiling err blogging !!!

And then she grew up...

A winter sun... a lazy chair,
A curious mind... a new find,
A sunny day... seasons later,
Lazy spring... fine wine,
That's how she grew,
And then Phoenix finally flew...
Note: Quite random actually, however as you read further am sure the essence of the above lines would be delivered.

Time flies they say, and well it sure does. Figuratively speaking! Honestly, what were you thinking? ;)

I started my second innings in blogsville, towards the fag end of 2006 and was very much a closet blogger. used to write as and when I felt like, and never really bothered to read other blogs. And then, after being coaxed into reading some other blogs by a friend of mine, I started blog-hopping. It was the winter of 2007. And it was then that on one such expedition I happened to chance across a blogger called "Phoenix". Absolutely frank, and with a much appreciated flair of writing, I kept coming back for more. Over the course of next few months we developed a few common acquaintances (also bloggers) over other social networking sites. It was then, I came to know Raka, and not Phoenix. One might claim that, Raka n Phoenix are one and the same, I, unfortunately beg to differ. Phoenix is Raka, the converse is not true. I digress. :)

The basic essence of Destiny's Child the way I have seen it, is the honesty with which Phoenix writes. I know few other bloggers who have done so. Not always the sensitive soul, who can drive one mad with their sugar coated posts, Phoenix struck a delicate balance with her posts. She presented the world the way she saw it, the way it happened around her. The other remarkable aspect about her is the blog has matured along with Raka/Phoenix. back in 2007, when I came to know her, she was a thoughtful, sensitive blogger, who had just stepped into adulthood and was going through the pains of finding out a lot of harsh realities of life. Now, about to graduate, this lady has matured beyond my imagination. Always had a good head on her shoulders, the lessons learnt, the pragmatism, ambitiousness has reflected in her posts. At times subtle, at times overt, but the growth has been tremendous. Between then and now, she has grown by nearly 300 posts. And frankly, as Phoenix approaches the 500 milestone she has managed to touch quite a few hearts as a blogger and as a friend. I honestly, couldn't think of talking about any other topic other than her growth as I had seen here at blogsville.

Phoenix,
From where I stand the 500 milestone for you is kind of symbolic. It marks a point in time, when you step beyond the cocoons of your comfort zone. A phase of your life where you are keen to strike out on your own, you are ambitious and going all out to build your own identity. You are making choices and decisions which will determine the course of your life at least for the next 5 years. It is a rite of passage which we all undertake at some point. I wish you the very best, and hope that amidst all your pursuits you wouldn't lose touch with your real self. Oh and do not take a hiatus from blogsville like I did. :)
Best wishes
Sam a.k.a Confused Sam

Now, I have been at my best behaviour in this post. If you all would excuse me, I must attend to a few pressing matters of my own. Damn Imperial!! :D

R-A-K-A M-A-J-U-M-D-A-R

Reveling under the sky,

Animating the flowing river,

Kneeling down to caress the daisies,

At times,she personifies the ultimate giver.

Making my day a dream,

Amazing me by her sheer words,

Juggling several tasks without fail,

Understanding me like no other,

My endearing friend -

Daunting,brave- up against a rough sail

And do you who she is ?Our very own-

Raka Majumdar......

I could not help but write this acrostic for my dear friend and lovely soul sister Phoenix.

Awaiting your reply....

Lotsa love and more love to Phoenix...

501. R.e.m.i.n.i.s.c.e.n.c.e

They say that you don't make good friends in the virtual world.And we,the current generation is very much ridiculed by our predecessors for the extreme thin line precision at which almost all of our relationships go.I would however differ in this regard.Even though most relationships thrive on a very thin line,unfortunately,some do get above all those notions paving way for ultimate bliss....

And the one I share with the author (Raka/Phoenix) is one such.... :) Ultimate bliss....!!!!!!

I first come across her blog in the last quarter of 2008 and something which attracted me the most right away,was the fact that Raka was supremely modest and frank on all that she had been writing about.And my observation is very well reiterated by the many number of readers who flock around here...That is also because the blog readers have also evolved wonderfully well..Gone are those days,when people used to run behind a touch of flamboyance or gossip or sweet talk.

Plain incidents of one's life serve as a stepping stone in defining most others.

And that has been the most amazing thing behind the woman,herself.And as time went by,I got ever so wonderfully addicted to this space.Reading the Destiny's Child was like reading the newspaper first up in the morning for she was soo very punctual with her posts.The world through her eyes was and still is an extremely wonderful experience.And then came social networking sites to the foray,I found her on one of them and we were friends soon enough.As time went by,so did things fall into place ever-so-wonderfully well.


As things stand today,close to 6 months from our first real conversation on the telephone,I have learned more things from her than I could have ever given her.The humongous multi dimensions of the people inhabiting the earth,the life and times of an Indian girl coupled with the realities that they have to face in life,the flashes of the child in her who wishes to go places fueled by her ambitions,the woman in her who is a great source of emotional life support system to most people around her(including ME),an insight into the life of a perfectionist who has a very good head above her shoulders and whose feet are completely firm on the ground--I could just go on and on and on.The mere fact is,seldom have I been able to see people of the current generation who have had a better outlook on life than raka and in these times,I have never been ashamed to take a leaf out of hers and incorporate them into mine.After all,she is indeed MINE..... :D

And in these times,there sure has been my share of PR disasters(I am GOD) but unlike the previous times where in,I thought it transpired thanks to me,Raka has made me realise that it ain't really so and put a whole new dimension into my thought process..I don't really think about them now anymore,for I have her...forever...and ever....and ever.... :)



And now when I come across myself as one of those very lucky few who have been fortunate enough to adorn this space,I thank her for all the wonderful moments that have transpired in between the two of us in this short span of time,for putting up with me,the number of times I have put her in utter disarray through my umpteen SMS's (yeah,messaging is free for me..Want a bite??get in touch.. :p ) and missed calls and also those phone calls sometimes- just hoping that these times do last forever.....

Love you ever so much.....*Hugs*
yours Multi(Nikhil)Menon

Yeah,I am praying for your admission at MASCOM more than anyone else and you know why...!! :D

499. To Raka, with love

When Raka asked me to write her 499th post, honestly I felt honored.

I have known you for not a very long time, but this little time has been worth that I feel proud to call you my friend.
I still remember the first post I read on your blog. It talked of your dream home. A Minimally finished Apartment on the top floor of a skyscraper from where you could see the lights of the city. I liked the idea and instantly followed your blog.

I used to read the blog religiously. And as you narrated, I found out you were younger than I am, but your views, thoughts, ideologies and most importantly as I always say the frequency, were quiet near mine.

Gradually, we were on each others friend lists on gtalk and since then there is no looking back.
I see in you a strong character, a determined soul and an emotional heart.

Do you remember the first time we caught each other online?
I cant recall whether it was 2 am or 3 till we chatted and chatted. I mean amazement was when you are talking to a person for the first time, you don't tell her almost all your darkest secrets and you don't share with her your deepest feelings.

I never knew I could be so very good friends with someone in the very first instance.

I spent great time with you girl, those philosophical discussions, those naughty rap sessions, those useless conferences, those silly talks, those mood lifting parleys, the total girl stuff, everything.


And when you asked me for a girl-blog, I took not a nanosecond to say "I am in" and we landed on up to this Femme Fatale Idea. Since then, whatever you call it, vicious circle, loop or cycle, this relationship of ours is such.

I love the way you say " I am just a phone call away" and "I am there for you na"..

The geographical distance doesn't make much sense to us. But I'll soon come down to see you for sure and remember your promise to visit me after your exmas.

I know I may be sounding like Im writing a testi for my guy, but you are equally loved.. ;)
I really wish to God to bless you with his choicest blessings for you are worth it..

Love always....

498.PHOENIX...ITS FOR YOU...!!!

Proud to be her friend
Her attitude, i admire
Over time, we became friends
Every chat was special for us
Nights become short, when we speak
I know her as the Destiny's Child
Xpressing her inner self

Ringing the bells of love
Always she makes us think
King of her heart, is special
Always be together, i wish

Many a times, i find her in stress
U know, she can manage it fine
Journey of her life, she decided
All of them, she managed to cross
Memories, she have in loads
Drop them will never she
Am one of them i am sure
River of love i wud like to gift her...!!!

-- yours forever friend
Yamini Meduri
desire2dream, live2achieve
From the Land Of Dreams

UNTIL WE MET..

I don’t remember when I first saw her,
But whatever I saw
Left me awestruck.

I was charmed into the myriad hues she had woven
And soon got enticed
Into a magical bond.

All my efforts to tell her what I felt for her
Met with instant success
And we were talking away our lives.

I owe her a new viewpoint of life
And maybe I’v made her smile
Once in a while.

I never knew it so sweet a bet
I never felt so wonderful
Until we met.

in case you guys miss it... this is a guest post by Anwesa.. :) she has decided to vehemently protest against my writers block and has decided to bail me out by writing this impromptu poem about me... thank you so much Anwesa for the poem.. I'm too touched for words :)