MUSINGS OF A SOLITARY HEART

the candle flickered
and died out.
the wind swept
the papers off my desk.
i sit solitary
in the dark
as i battle with the emotions
dueling within me
a silent tear courses
its way down unnoticed

lost in my thoughts
i lose track of time
caught in the grips
of an impending gloom
they say,futile it is
to love,
i say,
despite the agony
its well worth the pain

a soft breeze blows
as my hair falls on my face
incoherent thoughts
cloud my mind
as i stifle my sobs
and silently mourn
the absence of my love
fate has dealt me a cruel hand
and i suffer,the tyrannies of eventuality

as the sun comes up
a new hope dawns within me
i must survive
and dream again
to see this through
my love,
if only you were here
my life would have been complete.

Power Of Love


i feel like flying..
or to walk upon the air...
i feel so happy and
so free,
because i know
i am in love,with you....


when night falls
and the gentle breeze blows
ruffling my hair...
when i feel you whisper my name
i know i am not alone
for i know..
you love me too

hand in hand
we walk into the horizon
to our sun kissed future
just you and me
but before that hardships
we must endure

i know we will survive
the trying times
to emerge victorious
and together
i know we can make it
if only we try

so darling leave aside
you fears and apprehensions
and hear,i make a solemn promise
it is you,to whom i belong
it is you,whom i love
now and forever.
whenever you reach for me
you will never find me gone...

soon time will fly
and hardships will disappear
and we will be united again
and together we will
build a life of our own

so walk ahead
and brave the hurdles
as i anxiously wait
for you and for time to turn
when we ll be united forever
and then life will blossom
to all its glory
and reward our love
with its holy sanctity

together we will touch the sky
and scale the mountain high
because you fill me with love
and so much strength
that i know i can survive
if only you are my light
at the end of the tunnel

you,my love complete me
give me the strength;
urge me to fight
to dream dreams,
and make them reality.
you taught me to love
and now i give u me

GOING BACK TO SCHOOL


in just about a week i am goin back to school...its that time of the year again...and like every year our school is hosting our annual school concert-PERKIE AND THE PRINCE....and like all other years i ll be present but not as a student but as a alumni....i have started a whole new life in college...made some great friends and had many a wonderful moment....but every now and then...nostalgia would creep in...my heart would yearn for those days when my throat would become all sore from yelling and cheering for my house[vivekananda house-yellow] in the inter house games or sports meet..those house meeting...planning stragies to beat other houses...those secret talking with friends...or the exhilaration that coursed through me and my best pal while waiting for our voting results to come out...the ecstatic feeling when i won and became the house captain...then lifting the house cup of the year...all in all schhol life was as fun as it can get..barring ofcorse a few unpleasant encounters that id rather forget......
just to think that soon i ll be able to go back where i had met d most amazing friends of the world....learnt whatever i know today....a place that gave me my own identity,my school a place of greatest importance to me,being the best in the whole wide world....it fills me with a sense of childlike excitement,affection and a uncontrollable happiness just thinking of goin back to visit....it seems as if i cant contain the happiness within me....yippeee!!!!i am goin back to school.......to d golden era of my past and to my childhood days....

THE ILL FATED GIRL

Never had troubles
bogged me down
Never had pain
Affected me.
"Why now?"i ask myself
"Why me?"
Then the truth dawned
upon me..
I'm the ill fated girl
-As they called me
I am the me
One and only
I ll fated as always

NAMELESS

year after year,
alone she walked
braving the hurdles
that life sent her way.
then came the day
when the heart gave up,
"no more!here i quit"-it said

then silently and unnoticed
her soul passed away
to another world
far,far away.
no one cried,no one mourned
she remained inconspicuous,
as the day.
and thus she died a nameless death.

MIDNIGHT BLUES

reliazation has finally dawned upon me...samik will eventually go away....he has secured a very lucrative job offer in chennai...
all these days i was in denial...refusing to believe that he would leave some day...but today that illusion broke and was shattered into thousands of pieces.....
we both are together for the past 2 years or so...and during this time we have both evolved...seeing life in all its glory we have learnt how to love again and survive the many hurdles that had come our way...our relationship has blossomed through good and turbulent times...it has withstood tyrannies of fate and conspiracies of mankind...and now when we are in the threshold of a new phase in life,a new challenge has come up-to live without one another......
we may have braved through so many hardships,yet,we havent managed to master the art of staying apart....i smile through my tears,mask my unhappiness behind an always cheerful face..how can i show him,how much just the thought of separation is causing me?...it would weaken his resolve...its not a matter of days or weeks but 3 long and painful years of separation.regular telephone conversation would become weekly calls;frequent meetings would be replaced by meeting once a year,for a few odd days...terrible!terrible!....its like a nightmare that seems to have no end....when my friends would bask in the glory of love and would share a close companionship with their special one...i would yearn for the person i love...who would be soo many miles away and far out of reach....
thoughts such as these depresses and boggs me down..i am amazed at how soon i have gotten attached to samik that now life without him seems indespensable to me....when there is no way out and gloom sets in i just remember what my best friend,shubho once said..."tough times dont last but tough people do".i know if ever i am to falter,i have friends like shubho,rohit n nimisha to fall back on...but samik...who will he hav to comfort him in an alien city?no one but mayb my thoughts,i am much better of that way i am,i realise;atleast i have my friends....thus i comfort and give solace to myself...ending on a positive note i just hope against hope that samik gets a better offer here,in the city so that we donot have to go through the trials of separation.

DRIVING LESSONS


yesterday afternoon i got off the bus very aprehensively...SAMIK was taking me on a drive in this dads car..before i go further i would like to mention that samik is a new learner and this driving area is his neighbourhood....staying near d highway he has never really ventured out of his locality...so understandably i was scared about losing my life....
hesitantly i got in the passenger seat next to d drivers seat...i was pleasantly surprised to find out that..not only was SAMIK a good driver...he could manoeuvre the car even in most tricky situations.....the person who never ventured out of his neighbourhood ..he went sailing in d highway......it was a real wonderful experience...i had never felt so exhilarated by speed b4....i must conclude by adding that seeing my guy drive with such finesse made me real proud.i feel real guilty to even admit that i had once underestimated this ability...here's to samik's growing finesse in driving cheers!

KNOCK KNOCK:SEMESTER IS HERE


just 5 more days to go for my 1st semester exams in jadavpur university[ju].the most talked about topic with UG1's is if at all we ll manage to get a 60% in our mark sheet to save face.....as days go passing by...tension is mounting...im being paranoid as to how will i perform...class tests are one thing but sem...my its one helleva difference...i thik its about time i give up lazing around and finally get down to study...i hope my determination doesnt waver...im sure my classmates have geared up and done with their prep...well now is not the time for thinging about what others are doin but mind what i should do...making up my mind..hence im putting an end to this blogging and getting back to my dusty books.adios!

DHOOM AGAIN

yesterday,i watched the much awaited and hyped dhoom-D2.i must say that the film lived up to all its expectation....truly its a hrithik roshan film....being a die hard fan of him...i cudnt help but drool as his cool attitude,dare devil stunts,stylish persona...all in all amounts to d2...one wonders y abhishek did this film...wat dhoom did to abhishek,d2 couldnt elevate AB baby to a higher status.....hrithik outshone and excelled abhishek.dance sequences,action packed stunts was all worth the exorbitant ticket price.if u wanna see practicle and accurate film then this is not ur movie....out n out entertainer this film is a sure hit...as box office is soaring as d producers and yash raj films go smiling all the way to d coffers....dhoom really rocks

"TAG"

rohit tagged me...so i am now to write 10 things that give me pleasure....so here i go

~~when my niece does something she shouldnt...and runs and hides behind me so that i can save her from getting a scolding...

~~reading a wonderful book

~~spending time with my guy...

~~sitting in jheel par with friends and having one of our famous adda sessions....

~~when i am appreciated on my achievements.....

~~when i get more marks than my best buddy,shubhankar...and i gloat over it..

~~being in the company of my guys family

~~winning in badminton and rowing.....

~~making long calls in the middle of the night......

~~walking in the rain......


now i tag subho and dada[samrat]....