Dear Dada,

It is Rakhi again. There is so much I want to say to you, but I won’t, because it doesn’t matter anymore. I’m tired. I’m tired of missing you. I’m tired of hoping that things will change. I’m tired of waiting for you to rise above the petty differences that our parents share. I’m tired of our memories, which keeps reminding me that the reality is different now. I’m tired of explaining to you, that I love you. I’m tired of trying anymore.

My tears have run dry. My heart has turned into ice. I’m angry at myself, for I keep reaching out to you but you keep disappointing me. So I won’t do it anymore.

I won’t tell you to put aside the differences, anymore. I won’t tell you that I look up to you. I won’t tell you, that your cold attitude hurts me. I won’t plead to you to think things differently, because I love you and you are the only brother I have. I know you don’t care about me anymore. But I do, and will always. But I will no longer pine for you, and no longer wait in hope for you to change. Happy Raksha Bandhan!

Love always,

Your sister,

P